Before pouring the wine, I decided to surprise him and sneak up to wrap my arms around his waist while he buttoned his shirt.
Then I heard his voice through the cracked bedroom door.
It wasn’t the voice he used with me. It was low and careful.
“I want to do this properly.”
“Yeah, man. I’ve been pulling the wool over her eyes since school. She has no idea. Tonight I’ll finally do what I planned,” I heard Aaron say.
My knees buckled against the wall.
I pressed a hand over my mouth so hard I tasted blood from my own lip.
Fifteen years rushed through my head all at once.
The locked drawer, the secret phone calls, the name “Vanessa” flashing on his screen at 11 p.m. two summers ago, the way he’d looked me dead in the eye and said putting the house in his name alone was “just for tax reasons,” and the way he insisted, even after the wedding, that we keep separate bank accounts.
Every little thing I’d swallowed down because I loved him too much to ask twice.
“Tonight I’ll finally do what I planned.”
I could’ve burst into that bedroom screaming or thrown the wine glass at the wall and demanded answers.
But something inside me went very, very still.
I wanted to know who Aaron was talking to, what he’d planned, and why he’d pretended to love me all these years. I wanted the whole picture, not a hallway shouting match he’d weasel his way out of with that soft smile.
So I made a different decision.
I could’ve burst into that bedroom screaming.
I wiped my face with the hem of my dress. I walked back to the kitchen on legs that didn’t feel like mine.
I picked up the wine bottle and poured two perfect glasses.
I practiced my smile in the reflection of the microwave door. The same dumb one I’d worn for 15 years.
***
When Aaron came out of the bedroom, he went into his home office and came back in a suit, his hands tucked behind his back, hiding something.
“You look beautiful tonight,” he said, looking at me.
“So do you,” I answered, but I didn’t mean it.
I practiced my smile in the reflection of the microwave door.
My husband opened his mouth to say something else.
That’s when I heard tires crunch on the gravel outside.
A car door slammed. Footsteps came up our walkway, sure and unhurried, as if they belonged to someone who’d been invited.
Then came the knock!
